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Good morning. I didn’t want to think about my lover so I m..

Good morning.

I didn’t want to think about my lover so I made 40 tiktoks and filmed a few clips. I think that’s my record in a day. (Nothing special, not rocket science stuff, just went on a spree and showed up.) didn’t end up doing Cosplay. Spent most of the night hyping myself to put on make up and talk. Practiced my scenes. Posted updates on Instagram about the nice things said about me in news article and acting before i hurricaned TikTok. I ate a French toast eggo waffle. Now, I’m gonna nap a little. If I can’t sleep I’ll be in my DMs. 🤗 Have a great day. 🤍

#cindymoon #diary

2024-09-10 13:59:45 +0000 UTC View Post

Red-y or not, here I cum! ❤️‍🔥

2024-09-10 13:00:30 +0000 UTC View Post

Who makes me the happiest? That’s you watching me play with ..

Who makes me the happiest? That’s you
watching me play with myself! 😍

2024-09-10 11:38:02 +0000 UTC View Post

Take care. 🤍

2024-09-10 06:27:33 +0000 UTC View Post

It looks like the article about cosplayer Cindy Moon has bee..

It looks like the article about cosplayer Cindy Moon has been published but there’s no mention of my Instagram or onlyfans so that’s not as helpful. 😂 (thank you to everyone who promo’s me for fun)

I’m glad the website I own will get some web traffic, though. Thank you again for all the love and support! It’s only up from here. 😁

#cosplayer #cindymoon #volunteer #news

2024-09-10 05:10:09 +0000 UTC View Post

The person who did a little interview with me said they’re p..

The person who did a little interview with me said they’re publishing an article on me soon for my humanitarian work. I’m very grateful. I hope it turns out good. 🤍

#cindymoon #diary

2024-09-10 02:19:39 +0000 UTC View Post

I have an acting class/audition/seminar to attend on Septemb..

I have an acting class/audition/seminar to attend on September 18! PLEASE make sure I show up, lol. I bombed the last audition I had with a Sony casting director and this one does stuff for Netflix and big movies. 😆 I’m doing the same scenes from Ozark.

I have about a week to become not the worst actor ever. 🤗🤭

2024-09-10 01:02:42 +0000 UTC View Post

I did really good on a quiz I had today. Going to the market..

I did really good on a quiz I had today. Going to the market for some goodies, coming back to work on a custom and do a photo shoot in a Cosplay. 🤗🤍

2024-09-09 23:57:40 +0000 UTC View Post

Looking for actors and playmates. 🤗 i only wanna sleep with ..

Looking for actors and playmates. 🤗 i only wanna sleep with my followers, esp the OG ones.

2024-09-09 23:39:11 +0000 UTC View Post

Don’t talk. I just wanna hear u moan.

2024-09-09 23:04:59 +0000 UTC View Post

You’re all that I need. 💦

2024-09-09 22:39:53 +0000 UTC View Post

Loving you is a walk in the park. 🌳

2024-09-09 22:33:47 +0000 UTC View Post

I can’t wait to have some part time boyfriends and girlfrien..

I can’t wait to have some part time boyfriends and girlfriends. 🤍

I just want to be at a place where I can think straight. My goal is to make enough to get a little land with a barn for my stuff and I’ll feel alright. I want some space for organizing my clothes and so I can enjoy shenanigans and playing around. A lot of people have sent me stuff over the years and I can’t store it anymore.

If I can make enough to get some space I’ll be super happy. What I have going on right now just isn’t cutting it. $2200 in rent, I got utilities, classes and people to take care of. Everything will be okay soon, I’m sure. I just want someone to sit with me while I sort through some clothes. Watch a little Netflix, check in on another, stretch together. If they help that’s nice. 🤗

2024-09-09 22:31:45 +0000 UTC View Post

Hope everyone had a good weekend. 🤗

2024-09-09 22:09:52 +0000 UTC View Post

Red hot and ready to go. 😍

2024-09-09 13:01:31 +0000 UTC View Post

Pretty in pink, not as innocent as you think.😻

2024-09-09 12:58:58 +0000 UTC View Post

I like when you’re close to me. 🤍

2024-09-09 05:26:18 +0000 UTC View Post

Sometimes, I get hyper and go off on the internet before i f..

Sometimes, I get hyper and go off on the internet before i fall asleep. I say a lot of things when I’m manic. 😶 I wake up and I’m like… oh yea I posted that. It’s nice when good people acknowledge it and support my efforts, too. 😆 I spend a lot of time doing it on social media and I’m glad the right people are seeing me.

2024-09-09 05:23:56 +0000 UTC View Post

If I owe you a little something something, I appreciate your..

If I owe you a little something something, I appreciate your patience and you can softly let me know for some bonus goodies. Ily. I was trying to get into the mood today to film and I’m close to ready. 🙈

2024-09-09 04:54:54 +0000 UTC View Post

wanna see more, daddy? 🫦

2024-09-09 00:40:44 +0000 UTC View Post

Today’s stream! Never sold a stream this low before but I’ve..

Today’s stream! Never sold a stream this low before but I’ve been chatty so it’ll be a special price today. Love u lots. 🤍 Pajamas in sweatpants and watermelon shirt designed by Sammy Obeid the comedian and then Calvin Klein athletic wear and then a nurse costume!

#cindymoon #nurse #cosplay

2024-09-08 23:14:47 +0000 UTC View Post

Uplifting 🤍

2024-09-08 22:39:49 +0000 UTC View Post

Today, episode 1.. I wore my pajamas which is a Watermelon s..

Today, episode 1.. I wore my pajamas which is a Watermelon shirt and sweatpants. I change out into Calvin Klein sports bra and boyshorts.

2024-09-08 20:38:24 +0000 UTC View Post

Blow me some kisses before u leave for work, papi. 🤍 💋 🥰

2024-09-08 11:25:23 +0000 UTC View Post

Good morning. 🌞

2024-09-08 09:39:36 +0000 UTC View Post

Japanese curry meal planning finished. 🤗 I feel a lot bette..

Japanese curry meal planning finished. 🤗

I feel a lot better after processing what’s been going on. I appreciate everyone here for making me feel beautiful and valuable. My reality didn’t include that at all. I needed you all to wake up from it.

Waifu stuff for simps only from here on out. I am not interested in dating. I need to work really hard to make up for lost time, revenue, joy, years and memories.

Everything I’ve been wanting I can give to my self or get from nice people online who have been good to me. I deserve it all. 🤗

#cindymoon #diary #cooking

2024-09-08 09:31:08 +0000 UTC View Post

It is my fault for staying as long as I did. I am a lover ..

It is my fault for staying as long as I did.

I am a lover at heart. I got very attached. My heart was loyal even though I knew it was detrimental to work. I also didn’t feel right leaving someone just because their dick didn’t work. His story about having a dedbeat father also got to my heart. I was also afraid that if I left him he would smoke and drink himself to an early grave. No one else in his life was trying to stop him.

I couldn’t stop him anyways.

Im sure he has cancer… I can’t stand watching him do this to himself anymore. He’s been smoking about pack a day since he was 1 1. He learned it from his mom who wasn’t around much either.

This is too strezzful. I sincerely can’t deal with it. Nothing I say or do can stop him from smoking and vaping pr drinkingg 3 energy drinks a day. I can’t save him.

I cared very much. I was probably also afraid of being alone and never finding someone I would be this attracted to.

He was the most handsome man I’ve ever seen in my life.

I put him on a pedestal with the ideal version of him in my head hoping I could love him out of whatever dark hole he’s been in. He has helped and he gave me a lot of his time, some help and company even if wasn’t what I asked for. He has. I have to give him credit for that even if I had to pull teeth to get the occasional help.

He helped with renovation even though I told him it was more important that he give me a 2 minute blowie video. He did everything to avoid making love with me on camera. I don’t know what’s wrong with him and I don’t care anymore. If you’re not attracted to me then why did you make me be with you as if we were together? Someone who loves me wouldn’t keep me this strezzed for this long when all you needed to do was get a boner. I was good to you. I could have gotten us a house by now if you would just listen to me and help me 1 hour a day or even a week. But you won’t. I can’t do this anymore. He won’t have sex with me. I can’t do this anymore.

I need to find people to play with for work. He’s not worth going broke for. It doesn’t matter how much I loved him.

In his story, I’m the bad guy for distracting him from school. Im not trying to be the bad guy. I don’t want to blow up anymore. This angry, negative version isn’t the me I want to be. This just isn’t working. I can’t lose my followers over him. I don’t know why he can’t just listen to me and help out. I don’t want to live in strezz and anxiety anymore. I don’t know why he won’t help me where it matters. I don’t want to be working 16 hours on the phone anymore to take care of someone who doesn’t even care if I’ve eaten today or give me a vacation or birthday or Christmas. I don’t care if he didn’t have parents. I deserve better.

I don’t want to write essays on the internet anymore.

I don’t know all the reasons why I hung on for so long. I have things to work on myself. Im not perfect. I blow up and get angry when I can’t handle what’s on my plate all by myself. I’m not everyone’s cup of tea. I want someone who supports me and my passions and treats my followers well. If my followers don’t like him then I can’t do this and it’s not fair to them to see me so unhappy for so many years. I don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want to see me happy. I haven’t honestly smiled in years. I don’t want to shrink for someone who doesn’t appreciate me.

I suppose I didn’t have the energy to try again elsewhere. I don’t think either of us are bad, but we both have poor people brain and were very pressed by different things.

I can’t help someone who isn’t watering my garden. No matter how much I do it’s never enough for him to help me. I just can’t afford to do this anymore. There are people relying on me, lives that depend on the money I bring in. Refugees. Orphans.

I could have made 20k a month this whole time if he would just play with me on camera for a few minutes but he wont do it properly. I would have blown him every day to make 20k a month but he doesn’t want that even though he would benefit. I can’t deal with this insanity or stupidity.

I’m tired of feeling so ugly and helpless with him. I’m tired of helping him as much as I do and somehow I’m still the bad guy. I feel so stupid. This is hell for me and I deserve heaven. He wont make love with me, handle dinner on occasion or even hold the camera and play Instagram husband so I can get him a house or a new car. I don’t understand how stupid he can be, to hold content hostage and keep me this strezzed for this long.

I need a break and some time with a different kind of person. I’ve never had a real birthday celebration with him. No anniversaries. No dates. No breakfast in bed. No loving words. Just fighting fighting fighting. I can’t marry or have a family with someone who wouldn’t give me or a some mini me’s a birthday or Christmas. This whole time has been this weird blur and I kept hoping if I kept taking care of him he would eventually make it worth it. I suppose he’s still healing from his own things like a deadbeat father and his wife leaving him. I can’t save him.

I think if he actually loved me he would have taken me out on a date by now. I’m beyond confused, exhausted and angry. I just can’t do this anymore. I need peace and people who actually love me and want to see me succeed. I deserve it all.

#cindymoon #relationships #diary